Everything started off with me. If I never open up that small topic, I don't think this will happen. Among all the quarrel we had, I realise that this was the biggest mistake I've made.



How stupid of me to never think that this kind of stuffs will make you blow up. I'm sorry I didn't realise it. I was wrong when I thought it wasn't a big deal.



I knew you're worried and you wanted to look after me. Its my bad if I just walk away without turning back. I just want you to stop shouting.



Our $30 is gone within a blink. If I did not throw it, I think its still in our wallet. I will try my best to pay it back. I know $30 is quite a big amount for us. We really had a hard time looking for money. I'm sorry.



When I took out our ring and put it in your pocket, I swear I didn't really mean to. I just thought that was the only way for you to pull me nicely and gave me a warm hug. I know I'm wrong to do that but I just wanted to hear your sweet voice not your harsh voice.



I'm still at fault at the first place. I'm stupid, I'm deaf. You got my answer. I apologise for being so stubborn. I'll try not to say what I don't want to do. A small deal can become a big real deal, I've learned that.



You make me realise when you mentioned that you need some time alone. Sorry I can't be there for you although I wanted to. Forgive me, will you ?



You've promised not to take out our ring when we quarrel. Now I wanted to take this oppurtunity to tell you and all my public readers, I promise I won't do it again. I won't take out that ring again unless I really wanted to break off. But I think its impossible for me to fade your love away. I can't deny that I still love you.

Farhan, my love for you is really strong. You gave me love that none of the guys in the world can ever gave. You took a very good care of me. Where on earth can I find a guy who will always piggy back me everyday to climb the bridge, to send me home and waited for the doors to be close then walk away, to buy for me something that can make me happy even if you do have enough money for yourself ? You are one in a million.

For the first time in our relationship, I didn't get your lips to kiss my forehead at the end of the day. I thought you hated me. I'm sorry. I'm just scared of losing you. I've lost you once for 3 years. Please don't give me another one. I still and always love you. My love for you is always growing stronger each day, never will it become weaker. Please forgive me. Its my bad.

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LiL' Zea was here 5.50am..
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Alright, its 12.33pm now. Surprised I was up this early ? Haha. Well, I just came back from City Hall. Woke up at 8am then went to Peninsula Plaza to sign a paper regarding the work at Spinelli. Thank god I got the job ! So now am currently waiting for my boyfriend to wake up. (:

18 July 08: Went out and met Masitah & Auni at Tampines. After long I didn't see them, they have change. They really change you know. In terms of our religion. Unluckily, Penny cannot make it because she return my call at night and she can't go out because her father was at home. So, I slack with them then ayah came and fetch me around 9pm. He told me that we're going to Johor for a while and that was really suddenly. Haha. We went to fetch mama from work then off to Johor. Met ustaz and Mak Ti there.

19 July 08: We reached Johor at 1.35am. It was like in the middle of the night and they were having a meal. There's asam pedas (which i can label it as their favorite). After that, we just walk around looking at stuffs there. Mama got me a super cool shades and cigarettes. ;) We reached home at around 5.25am.

22 July 08: It has been 3 months Farhan & I are in a relationship. It started off with a bad day. But as i said, I always end up loving him more each day. So yesterday, I went to Parkway Parade with his family. Was like disturbing mama at work. ;) Farhan got a new shirt (again) and a new wallet. Haha. Yeah, we didnt celebrate monthsary. I don't even want to but at least i wish. Hehe.

Okay so, this is very random. I found this picture at my aunty's multiply. Yes, aunty. But she's young. As young as Uncle Mad I guess. Haha. Maybe I should call her kakak eh. What do you think ? Haha. Okay okay, this is a picture of Haji Kassim's family. From 2nd generation onwards. So, I am the 4th generation. That time there's a family gathering. I came down for a while only and sadly, I can't make it. I miss a lot of fun games. ):


[ Jalan Jumat 522E. ]

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LiL' Zea was here 12.54pm..
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16 July 08: Masitah woke me up in the morning. Asking me if I want to tag along with her and Auni to have a meal. But sorry babe, I'm just too tired. Get back to sleep and woke up again at around 1 or 2pm like that. Took a shower, clean my bedroom & iron all my clothes which i wash it the last night. Then Farhan text me around 4pm telling me that his family wanted to go to Geylang and want me to follow them. I was late as usual. Met his sister, dad & Imran at the bus-stop. Farhan, his mum and Irfan was late. Haha. So, we walk around at Geylang. Then went back to his crib and Farhan thought Irfan spelling (great eh ?).




[ On the way back to my place. ]



[ Outside my crib. ]


[ Happy nye diaa.. ]




[ Jade tak nampak lah. ]

17 July 08: Woke up at 1pm and I played PSP games. Haha. I woke Farhan up at 2pm then we get ready to go out because I had to go for an interview at Spinelli, Peninsula. Mama drove me to Farhan's place. We walked to Central to buy cigarettes then off to City Hall. After the interview, we sat down at the nearby court. I just like that place. I just like the to see those cars passing by. Then we went to sit by the river (not riverside !) and played PSP games. Haha. After tired of games, went to 7-eleven, get a drink then proceed to the bus-stop and took bus 12 back home. Not really home, we dropped at Central then walked to Farhan's crib. Ate double cheeseburger then he sent me home (well, like every night he never fails to send me home. =D).






[ An muke tak suke seyy.. ]



Edited pictures.






[ The green jade. ]

Finally ! Its 18 July 2008. Eki has already turned 22 ! Oh yeah, she's a big girl already. Very big and always bigger than me. Haha ! She must be partying all night now since she's not home yet. Yeah, I know my sister.


[ Happy birthday, big sister ! May joy and happiness fill up your day. Have fun, dudette. Love ya. ]

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LiL' Zea was here 03.06am..
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12 July 08: Early in the morning around 8am, Eki came to our bedroom and shout, "Syahirah datang ! Oi, Bangun lah ! Syahirah datang !" Oh yeah, she is so irritating. But I ignored her and continue sleeping because I'm so tired. For your info, Syahirah is my niece. Our family look after her when she was still a small baby. From 1 month old until now, she's already 9 years old. Then around 10am, I woke up to see her. She's playing the internet. She just loves barbie since small. Haha. Then I went back to bed. Around 11am, Mama woke me up asking me if I want to tag along with her and Syahirah to the big Ikea at Tampines. Although I'm so tired, I woke up lazily and quickly took a shower. So, we walk around. Its really hard to look after her. She is so playful. She likes to run around and I have to chase after, leaving mama behind. She loves one the toys we found there. Mama bought for her that. Oh yeah, she really love it (cut short only lah). As usual, after that I meet Farhan. (=

13 July 08: It was a really really bad day for Farhan & I, seriously. I just can't figure out what's up with us. Well anyway, I was supposed to go for the interview at Starbucks, Tampines Mall. When I reached there, I change my mind. Daym ! Then we went to get a movie ticket. Cik Ilah give Farhan a free ticket and $10 to watch it with me. Haha. Well, we watched Get Smart. I simply loves the movie. It was super gerek ! After the movie, went back to his crib and slack.

14 July 08: It was a 5th month reunion ! Planned to go for a swim at Wild Wild Wet as Farhan's mum gave us a free admission ticket. Hmm.. But baby, I'm sorry. ): Anyway, I still got to meet him. Just slack outside his crib, had a good time playing PSP because both of us just got a new game. Grand Theft Auto ! There's a time when we got so fucked up. Haha. Then he sent me back home around 11pm. Farhan was carrying me behind him (en-chang lah) at the bridge and mama and ayah caught us. Ayah sound kind of angry. Hmph.

Oh yeah, not to forget ...

[ Happy 1 year wedding anniversary to my sister, Kak Linda & her husband, Abg Wan. ]

Also ...

[ Happy 30th birthday to you, sister. ]

Anyway, I stayed at home on 15 July. Haha. The reason is I need a rest and I got quite a number of stuffs to do. Hmph. As usual, pictures.

Random pictures.

Eeka having fun with my camera phone.









[ Malu konon. ]









Pictures edit.




[ The black ring. ]

No matter how bad the day is for us, I always end up loving you more and more as each day passed. I don't mind spending everyday with you. Love you always, Farhan.

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LiL' Zea was here 7.33pm..
=)PEACE(= One Love..



Random updates. Firstly, sorry can't join you guys to Didie's birthday celebration. I was out for a swim with my mama and cousins at Jurong on 6th July. Mama just loves the waves. Haha. It was a really really long tiring day for me. I went to bed so late at night and have to wake up early in the morning. After swim, went to Uncle Faizal's crib at Bukit Panjang to have dinner and slack. I suddenly fall asleep and when I woke up, saw my parents were already outside the crib wanted to go home (without ME!).

And so yesterday, Farhan woke me up around 2pm asking me to hurry and get ready because he needs me to talk to the barber how to cut his hair. Hmph. As soon as I reached Loyang Point, saw Imran sitting quietly when the barber was cutting his hair. A good thing he did not cried. Then I walked to Farhan's crib with his mum, sister and Imran while Farhan took the bus with his dad and Irfan. It was like only 1 bus-stop away and they are taking the bus. Around 6pm we went out to Downtown East to have dinner at al-fresco with Farhan's grandparents. I swear I'm so full. Everytime I had a meal with them, I'm always SO FULL.

Today, I woke up with a stomach cramp. Its hard for me to walk around. Took a medicine and lie down in the living with my legs up on the wall. Oh yeah, I did not meet Farhan and I'm missing him so so much !

Baby, you look good. Haha. 5th month reunion coming oii.. Reunion not monthsary.

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LiL' Zea was here 11.43pm..
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Not so many happening things to mention. In fact, there's nothing to mention. I just don't know what to update. Hmph.

Random pictures (Ayah).


[ Ayah, what are you doing ? ]


[ Ayah MMS this picture to mama when mama is off to umrah. I heard that mama cried upon receiving this. And this picture comes with a msg that goes something like, "I had just finish praying. I pray that you are safe. I miss you" ]

Not to forget birthday girl. Happy 17th birthday, Didie. Have fun and enjoy !



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LiL' Zea was here 05.48pm..
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