Since mama is not at home, I have been doing all the job in the house. Wash the clothes, hang it, fold it and send to the rooms. Cleaning up the living room and my bedroom (thanks to Farhan for that helping hand). And now, I'm sick ! Sick because the dust has attacked me ! It means, I can't smoke and I can't continue cleaning up the house. I thought of cleaning up the last part of my room and the last part of the living room but god don't allow me to. Hmph.

Have been resting at home since Sunday. And I just got to go out just now. Supposed to go out with Eki & Eeka but I'm just so sorry because Farhan called me in the morning and told me that his aunty has already booked a movie ticket for us. Its a waste of money if I didn't go right. So I have to wake up so lazily and meet Farhan at his home. Well, we watched Kung Fu Panda. Irfan is so short that he can't see the big screen in front. Hahahaha !! I had a good time laughing watching that movie. But I had a bad time with my runny nose and the noisy kid beside Farhan. Hmph. After the movie, went to central for a while to grab a chicken floss and went home to accompany Ayah who is alone at home. I feel so relief when I'm home because I feel like its the only place that I'm safe.


[ Mama, I always pray that you are safe. ALWAYS. I miss you. Come back home quick, please. ]

I don't know why am I feeling like this. Everything I do at home, I always feel that Mama is with me. I cried that night missing and worrying so much about mama. That time, mama text me saying that after she has done her morning prayer, she walked alone and got lost. Then she heard a gunshot. She got so scared then she cried. I was so worried that I cried. Lucky, ustaz fetched her and she is safe now with her group.

No one can cook for when I'm sick now. I just want my mama back. )=
Now I know how hard it is to leave under a roof without a mum. It was tough, really.


[ Time spend is getting lesser but my love for you is never fading. ]

I know we always quarell this few days but my day always end up in your hug and I just love you so much. We always shout and I cried. Sorry to trouble you, Farhan. Maybe I'm just to afraid to lose you again. I don't want that to happen. Among all the guys I've met, you are the only one who gives many unexpected things. I just love you for who you are.

And I only wonder when, Farhan. When are you going go through everything just continue your normal life as a NS man. Its not that I want you to go in because I want to enjoy. Its just that I care about you so much. I love you and I want you to have a better life. I want your life to be like other's. I know its hard but come on, Farhan. its once and for all.

I've promised I'll wait.

P.S Happy wedding anniversary to you, Mama & Ayah. Both of you were away but I just know how much you guys love each other. I'm proud to have a parents like you.
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LiL' Zea was here 12.33am..
=)PECAE(= One Love..